There's always something great about resolutions before the new year. I think I'm going to do so great with them, so I go ahead and make this long list of resolutions, but it turns out that I'm dreadful at keeping them. I'll say, hey, I'll stop biting my nails and actually sit down and write every day. But the problem is that once the new year rolls around, the entire world has it out for my goals. I couldn't tell you why. Or maybe I do know why, and my brain is just trying to protect me.
But in all seriousness, resolutions are supposed to inspire you to be great. They're meant to help you grow and better yourself. But I'm not good at those things. Or maybe I'm really just not good at remembering that I'm supposed to do things. It might be my memory that ruins everything and threatens to remove my fabulous resolutions in order to keep me like I am.
Should I stay the way I am, or should I try and improve myself? I'm still not sure what I think about this. Every time I try, I fail. Oh goodness, I've said this so many times, but really, I'm just so bad at it. And it's not like I can just say that I'll get better without actually trying. But trying takes so much effort. What if that is the whole point of resolutions? It's trying to make you try. You know, that sounds like a good way to think about it. Okay, if I make resolutions, would you all keep me accountable? Because if I have people check on me, I might be able to actually keep it.
Resolutions:
Write at least a little every day
Bake something once a month
Cook a meal at least twice a week
Go on a trip by myself just for me
Try to stop biting my nails
How does this sound? Do we think that I can actually keep to all of this? Because I'm really not very sure. I'm going to attempt it, but I'm really going to trust all of you to poke me about it. I'm serious. It won't annoy me. In fact, as I said, I really think it will help. Look, together, we can all do this, okay?
Love and Happy Holidays,
A Slightly Panicked Aria